Fortunes

I've been dabbling with the dating scene lately. Honestly, I'm not ready to start dating; but it helps to take my mind off things, realize I'm still attractive to guys out there and also show me that there are other options... that he wasn't the only one that can get my engine running.

So.... I have been chit chatting with a few gentleman, one quite a bit. He's a slow mover (which is good for me right now). We have been emailing and messaging, recently switched to texts and finally set up a date for next week.

He checks in with me quite a bit via text, which is fun. It always makes me smile.

Yesterday I sent him a message and the conversation took a fun turn....

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ME: I just got a fortune cookie that you might find interesting.

HIM: Yeah? what's it say?

ME: And I quote, "you will meet a new person in this next week for your benefit."

HIM: Oh wow, that is interesting!

ME: I thought so. :)

HIM: Mine said, and I quote, "the heart that loves is always young."

ME: You had a fortune cookie today?

HIM: Yeah, we [him and his kids] had chinese for dinner.

ME: Great minds think alike... and I personally think that keeping the heart young is a good thing. :)

HIM: Yes they do and yes it is.

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Ahhh, so fun to flirt sometimes!! haha. We will see how this date goes. :-)

I should have wrung out my panties....

Yesterday we had a soccer game. It was supposed to be a quick trip up the road to Weber State Univeristy and then back home. Quick. Simple. Uneventful.

Instead, all hell broke loose.

The football players were practicing on our game field...and we all know football players, they weren't leaving for anything. They own that damn place, just ask them.

Our 5:00pm game time quickly turned into a 7:30pm game time.

That's when the rain came. Started out as sprinkles. Then downpour. Then lightning. Then all mayhem broke loose.

We ran to the bus (after realizing that standing in an easyup tent next to a 40 foot steel filming tower wasn't the best idea). The bus was hot and muggy and we all looked like this....

Finally the rain quit, the lightning went away and it was 7:15, game time!

Scratch that, the football players came back. Apparently their practice was cut short by the lightning and they had every intention of finishing it.

Soooooo.... after 3 hours of sitting around the coach of the other team tells us we will be playing at a city park.... we drive there. The field isn't marked, part of it is covered by a low hanging tree, the goals don't have nets, the host team forgot the water, the grass is about 8 inches tall and it starts raining again....

But we made the most of it. Our guys pooper-scooped the field with our plastic cones they use for conditioning and we played a game, until it was called due to darkness.

Our quick game turned into a 8 hour ordeal. But we finally made it home. Tired, hungry and soaked down to the core.

Ahhh, the joys of being an athletic trainer. haha.

The List

Alright, some things are REALLY hard to do with this cast... and since it is on my right hand it has made a few things particularly difficult.

Please remember that I am not allowed to pinch, bring my thumb and fingers togther, squeeze, move my thumb side to side, put pressure on my thumb or put any tension in my hand.

So, I'm compiling a list of things that have become increasingly difficult. Here it is.

1. PUTTING ON (and taking off) MY BRA
2. squeezing shampoo and conditioner out of the bottles
3. writing anything (that goes without saying, right?)
4. holding eating utensils
5. opening waterbottles
6. breaking ice cubes out of the trays
7. turning the keys to start the car
8. remembering to hit the space bar with my LEFT hand while typing
9. bathroom activities. (haha, TMI?)
10. buckling my sandals on my right foot

Thats all I can think of in this moment... I will update as needed.

For now, just picture this... most of it is quite comical. LOL

Taking Responsibility

My life has been highly effected lately by someone who refuses to take responsibility. It's heartbreaking, frustrating and infuriating.

The other morning I was laying in bed and casually checking facebook and email on my phone (that's my idea of relaxing now days...)

I got an email from my Grandma and it started out hitting wayyyy too close to home.... someone again not taking responsibility and I could feel my blood pressure starting to rise.

Then as I scrolled down I literally laughed out loud. It was sooo nice to have a good hearted belly laugh!! (Thanks Grandma, I needed that).

So, to share the love.....

Enjoy! :)

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NO I HAVE NOT SEEN YOUR LIPSTICK!!

Why would you even ask me that? I'm insulted!! Every time something goes missing around here everybody looks at me! For your information I don't even wear that shade. It doesn't flatter my complexion and it tastes terrible. oops.

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What is in a name?

Lucky for me my MRI on my thumb came back negative for the lesion the doctor thought I had...but did confirm the ligament tear.... while it's still a bummer, I DON'T HAVE TO HAVE SURGERY!!! Which is AWESOME.

I'm finally feeling like something is going my way and am SO GRATEFUL for it. Horray for small wins!!

I'm still trying to figure out what I want to tell people when they asked what happened. Honestly, it's embarrassing. I still tear up having to tell the doctors what happened. This whole thing is so embarrassing.....

The splint draws a lot of attention, and questions. For now I just tell people, "I have a torn ligament in my thumb." When they ask how I did it I don't know what to say. I told one person the truth, the look they gave me made me feel an inch tall. I told the next person that I "got in a little scuffle." Then I realized I sounded like a mischievous scoundrel.

Soooooo, needless to say, the story needs work, as does the name. If I'm wearing this bad boy for six weeks, IT NEEDS A NAME!!!

SUGGESTIONS???

I will tell you this much, it's hard to do things.... I'm right handed and this thing is getting in the way! I'm not allowed to touch my thumb and finger together in a pinching motion. I'm not allowed to put any pressure to either side and I'm not allowed to put any firm pressure straight down.

I tried to eat a salad with my left hand today and wound up with dressing close to my ear. I'm trying to remember to hit the space bar with my left hand while I'm typing (annoying!!). I can't tape, massage, grab things, hold things at work. I'm not allowed to grip or squeeze anything, including holding cups or water bottles. I can't hold a pen and write. I can't hold a fork. I can't twist the keys to turn on the car. I can't pick up my purse and put it on my shoulder. I can't get my fingers close enough together to pick up a piece of paper.... these next six weeks will be interesting. But when I'm done I'm pretty sure I will be ambidextrous!!! :) haha

So, any suggestions on names?? I'm thinking a small prize for the winner.

You have a lot of esplainin' to do

I don't remember what movie it's from... but remember that line? The one that says, "You have a lot of esplainin' to do!" In that wierd lisp of an accent??

Well, I have a lot of explaining to do... I'm trying my darndest to explain why Sam dosen't live here anymore. I'm trying to explain why Olivia dosen't live here anymore, and neither do any of her really cool toys that used to be in her room.

My niece and nephew are here visiting for an hour or two and they just don't understand why all the toys arent here. They don't understand why Sam and Olivia aren't here... or the dog Max.

They have a lot of questions and I'm trying to have the right answers. Answers that make it understandable, make it make sense.

They are trying to understand that Sam and Olivia won't ever live here again and they are trying to understand why I'm not "the second wife" anymore. (We weren't ever married... but in their little heads we were married, and Sam and I were husband and wife.... how else could we live together if we weren't married??!?!? haha).

So yes, I'm sorry darlings, but I'm not the second wife anymore. One of your best friends dosen't live here anymore, and neither do any of her really cool toys. My "husband" dosen't live here anymore, and neither does his really funny dog, or his GI Joe toys... the ones that used to be on the headboard.

I'm sorry that I keep crying when you ask for them, for their toys, for the dog, for Sam's toys, for their movies. I don't mean to make you feel bad, really. I'm trying to stop crying, I know you don't understand.

Let's just all lay here and watch a movie, ok? Even though the last time I laid in bed and watched this movie it was with two very different people... the ones you have been asking for, the ones that you are so used to being here. I'll try not to cry, especially when the fairies fly out... because that was her favorite part.

Cake Wars!!

One of my "nephews" is a senior with Wasatch High School football this year. Every year they have a fundraiser BBQ and the seniors are required to bring a cake for the cake auction.

This is all about bragging rights!

It's a must that your cake be the BEST AND MOST ORIGINAL.

I think we nailed it... our cake auctioned for for $200.

Girl's Night

There are a few things that I love doing.

1. cooking

2. entertaining


Girl's night gives the prefect opportunity to do both!!!

We had a "Sex in the City" girls night.... decadent food, splendid drinks and the movie to boot....

I was told the food was delicious and we had a great time together.

Girl's night rocks!!

We will be having a sequel party.... so all stay tuned!! This time we are making sure to have everyone dress up in their best "SITC" inspired outfit...

Hope's outfit was priceless for this party.... all to top it off with her standing at the food table saying, "If I would have known it was this type of party I would have worn pants!!"

hahahaha. That's right, that's how we roll!

Nap time

Today I took a three hour nap, at 6:30 am.

Why is it a nap you ask? Well... because I took it between my two jobs. LOL.

So, for me it's a nap! And let me tell you..... it felt absolutely marvelous.

So now I'm sitting at work, again.... and thinking I'm going to go take a shower so I feel somewhat human.

Then I'm off to lunch with my wonderful confidant, cheerleader, counselor and friend....

Then off to see my real, actually certified, counselor so she can tell me I'm not insane for wanting to wring some one's neck. :) Sometimes it's just nice to know that a professional thinks you are justified and normal.

Then.... I don't know what then.... spend some time at home! (gasp!) I can't wait! :)

Punching Bag

Have you ever felt like every day brings you a new punch in the face?

Seriously, something new every single day....

Here's the big question? Why am I still mourning the loss?

Some moments I am BEYOND mad, some moments I'm sad and reminiscing. Seriously, what is all that about?

Ugh, emotions. They are crazy!!

And you know what's crazier? Having to deal with all this *$%&, every single damn day.

Control - It's all about Control

You know, it's funny... control seems to be the key word lately.

He has blamed me for being too controlling (which, if you know anything about our relationship you probably just laughed out loud), now I see that it's all because he didn't have control.

The minute I started making decisions and putting up boundaries he started grasping at it more and more.... It's annoying, to say the least.

His ways of trying to control me now are downright humorous, yet still very annoying. I want to cut all ties, but he won't let it happen... he seems insistent on dragging me down with him.

News for ya.... NOT GONNA HAPPEN.

On the flip side, the best thing for me to do right now is to start making decisions that REtake control of my life.

I'm fixing finances, redecorating the house, making changes in my career, etc.

I'm working through a pile of self-help books, reassessing and recommitting all over the place.

I'm making decisions for me, big decisions, ones that help me feel like I'm actually moving forward and dealing with this big pile of *%&$ that has been left for me to deal with.

So yes, why is it that it all seems to come back to control??

The good thing is that I'm efficient and smart. I just need to remember that and use it to fix all this.... it's happening. One day at a time.