I tried to sleep, but it didn't happen. I put in my iPod, and that didn't help.
Instead, it encouraged my mind to wander, and very quickly my energy seemed to be trapped in my body and I felt I would burst out of my skin if I didn't get moving. Anywhere, and now.
So I did the only logical thing. I got up, put on my sweats, wrapped myself in the extra blanket from my bed, went outside.... and snuggled myself down into the snow.
Being on the road in Sun Valley, ID gave me what every country girl yearns for, plenty of fresh air to cleanse her soul while staring up at the moon and listening to the song that seems to bring meaning into just about anything.
So, here I lay, in the snow, watching the clouds race across the full moon, fully pulling into me the fresh mountain air and listening to this....
The song that I instantly fell in love with at a small intimate concert in downtown Salt Lake City. The song that is on every single one of my playlists, no joke. The song that seems to refocus me and make me want to grow beyond what I think I am capable of becoming. The song that gives me the courage to keep going, to dream big.
And I lay here, cocooned in my little mini recliner of snow. My hair flowing wildly around my shoulders and the mountain breeze kissing my sniffly nose.
And magically I feel completely present. Content. Alive. Driven. Confident. Satisfied. Grounded.
And here I lay, watching the clouds race across the moon, counting stars.... the ones you only see when you escape the hustle-bustle.
And suddenly my eyes are closed, I'm breathing confidently.
I notice the song changes, and for the first time in the past thirty minutes I don't start the song over.... I let it pass to the next. Another favorite.
And I'm swaying, wrapped in my little snowy cocoon. Eyes closed, grooving.
The song ends, and my moment is over.
So I climb out of the snow, back onto my master bedroom porch, shake the snow off and come inside. Teeth chattering.
It's all I needed. A reset.
Every now and then a girl just needs to come back to basics and recharge. Nothing a little music and fresh air can't fix.
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